aaaah the great northwest. Its week two of our winter wonderland and its slowly melting, then freezes, then melts, now its rain and snow mixed. I loved the snow when it was powder, driving was great. Now that is melting, its becoming difficult to get out of our neighborhood. I just slid the truck out to the main streets. I have to use 4wd just to get out of our circle. I am done with the snow. Their is piles and piles of it all over the place. I am ready for summer.

Last night my six year old Leasel found the hard way, the his sister Bella does not like to share seats. She bite him!! Oh boy do I have a long road ahead. The indention were a lot worse then this

Good Morning Snow

This is my morning 5 inches of snow.
Its still coming down.
The branches are sagging on the trees.
Its absolutely lovely!!!

I feel LIke an Idiot

I sent an email last week letting my supervisors know that if weather gets bad, that I am right up the hill. I live a mile away from the silverdale hospital. Well we got all that snow that the weatherman said we were going to get.
by 9pm no phone calls. I thought wow everyone made it into work. I kinda was hoping

You see we had plans an Saturday night with friends to get our families together and have dinner and watch a movie. Those plans failed due to my friends husband having to drive people to work or to home from both hospital campuses.

My husband found out they are short drivers and volunteered our suburban and him to help out in the morning Which is fine. He love driving in the snow.

About 1030 I get a phone call they need me to work in Bremerton. Okay so its not done the hill, its across town. Money is money. Except I had two glasses of wine and could not drive. I would of never of had any in the first place if I was going to get a call 1 and half hours before the shift started. The shift went till 8am. bit of a snag their since Kevin had to be at the hospital by 7am Only one vehicle with 4wd. Plus their is the kids.

So I did not think thus one through. I feel so stupid for having that wine. On top of all of that, My superviser calls me to find out why I can't cover the shift. I told her why. Told her I wasn't think was just kicking back watching a movie and it sounded good at that moment.

So here I sit at 4 am in the morning, can't sleep due to my stupidity. I just hope no one hates me for it. I hate confrontation. I avoid it like the plague. I like everyone to like me. I will actually bend over backwards to help people out, but tonight I screwed up.

Well... at least I feel like I did!

Breaking Dawn

This is the fourth book. If you have not gotten this far in the series DO NOT READ THIS it gives out details on the 4th book, but I have to talk about this book. Okay so Edward and Bella are married and are are on their honeymoon.

We all know as couples what to expect on honeymoons. Well for Edward and Bella I did not think it was going to happen. It did. Their was no details of their lovemaking, but their was details of the aftermath. I kinda giggled at what was said. Bella woke up to goose down feathers everywhere. Well she took it as Edward destroying them or biting them instead of her. She also had bruises all over her which she does not remember. Having sex with a vampire was not going to be a easy thing. To Edward that was the end until her transformation.Well being a female and he being male (vampire or not) she got her way, this time he destroyed a bed and no bruise on her.

The description of the scene after she wakes up and realizes she is in trouble for getting her way. but also realizing, he destroyed the bed. I lost it I busted up laughing. He is laying their with his hands behind his head and she looks up at him with that uh oh look. Then He mentions the bed She looks and all she can think of is see all we need is practice. He is scrared of killing her and she just thinks they need pratice. Here is to Stephenie Meyer. I have never cryed, laughed and been so angry so much until I read your books. Can't wait for your next set of books!!

Snow Snow and Yes more Snow

I woke up this afternoon to my husband telling me its starting to snow. I am so excited. It never seems like Christmas until it snows. I came into work tonight singing, "let it snow let it snow let it snow".Our hospital campus is covered in white. Its very lovely outside. Our security guards are pulling out there de-icing stuff. I am tyring to hold them off as long as possible. I told them there is not enough out there to even start. So for now there are waiting. I was hoping we would get enough that I would actually had to use my 4wd. Ya right!! I live in western Washington, not eastern Washington. The few people that have come in tonight to stay with the their wives, (I work in Labor and Delivery) say that the roads are freezing and people were sliding into ditches. They said Bremerton was a mess. Its a wonderful 32 degrees and snowing.

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Moonlight and Eclipse

I had two days off and In between cleaning, helping kids with home work, playing with the baby. I read like a mad women. I have not read like this since I was a teenager. The Twilight series has me hooked. I Just finished up the third book. I loved all of them. I do have to admit I had to think like a teenage girl again. In parts of the book I wanted to just scream at Bella for being so overprotective and a worry-wort. Then I got to thinking how I was with my boyfriend when I was her age. The romance in story is what I loved. The innocence. I can't wait to see what the fourth one is about. My son says it is from other views. We will see.

Christmas concert

I sat though my son's annual Christmas concert. Last time I went it sounded like a bunch of cats being strangled and that was only two groups. This year they had all four groups- 5th grade band and orchestra and 6th grade band and orchestra. 5th grade is always a little rough. 6th grade sounded good.

Instead of the sound of cats being strangled I had this child that was climbing all over bench seats. up and down, back and forth, stomping up and down the stairs. I knew who he is and I noticed his parents sitting in the front not paying any attention to what their son was doing. But the kid was annoying everyone else. I watched him bump into two people. Squeeze in between people. I couldn't say anything to him. I was sitting to far away. I would have throttled my kids if they had behaved this way. Then he finally disappeared. I am thinking he decided to wonder the hall of the Jr high. The sad part is this child lives behind me too. Their are times I wonder why people have children if they are going to treat them like a novelty. That is another story I will save for later.
Anyways My son plays the drums. He is loving it. I hope he sticks with it. We have gone through drums, clarinet, violin. I am very proud with all my children. Well we will see how the next concert goes.

I am addicted

I started reading Twilight. I got up from my sleep not feeling well. I think my 6yr old may have given me his bug. Feel okay now. Anyways I took advantage of laying on the couch and read. I could not put the book down. My oldest son Kevin came downstairs about 10pm last night and was shocked that I was half way done with the book. I told him it is really good. He wants me to bring it home before he goes to school, so he can take it to school. I got his interest peaked. I am already preparing to go by the second book.

Its one of those trilogies you just don't want to end. I hope this writer Stephanie Meyer continues to write more of these. I know they were made for young adults, but It is a great fantasy.

I have not seen the movie and I heard the movie is a complete chick flick. Me being a chick I do not have a problem with that. My guy friends seem to be disappointed in it. Well duh!! If it is a chick flick, it is going to be more appealing to women. I love a good romantic movie. I am a romantic at heart.

Front of the class

I watched a movie tonight that gave me hope. The movie is about a young man who goes to school and becomes a teacher. The difference between him and other students is he has Tourette syndrome. He applied for many teaching jobs. He eventually gets one. The kids love him and he even helps one little boy to think differently about reading.

This movie gives me hope because I have a son who is considered mentally retarded. To look at him and talk to him you would never know it. He has a very hard time with writing. He is doing better in math and reading. His social skills are normal for his age and his physical skills are normal. He is nine years old, will be ten in February. He does not have much in the way of common sense. He struggles at the day to day tasks. He has to be reminded to change his clothes in the morning. (he likes to sleep in his clothes). He becomes easily frustrated when he can't get something right, like folding a shirt.

He told our dentist that he wanted to be a PE teacher when he grew up. My husband was thrilled that is what he wanted to do. After Watching the movie I realized that deep down my son would be able to continue his education and with hard work, Dakota can achieve his goal. If he wants to be a teacher, then I will help along the way. My sweet child

My favorite time of the year

I finally got to my Christmas decorating. Not all of it is up, but it looks good. My living room looks so cozy. I love this time of the year. All the color and pretty deco. Kevin got into it this year. Had a few suggestions or ideas and they looked good. I am hoping to get the tree completely done tomorrow.
My daughter Isabella has been nothing but smiles. Everything I bring out she investigates. Her eyes became very huge tonight, every time I plugged in another set of lights. I was so excited to bring out my musical rocking horse my Great Aunt got me when I was a teenager. I knew Isabella would love it and she did. She goes over, sits down and rocks it back and forth. I sang Christmas carols to her today. She learned another word LIGHT. She is picking up words way to fast.
I am so looking forward to Christmas. We have decided to do a family gift. We discussed it with our boys and told them they have two options. Individual gifts or one big gift. We told them the one big gift could be the Wii plus a few extra items. They like the family gift.
Even Kevin, who doesn't get into the games is asking around about what others like about the wii. Most his co-workers tell him the best part is when the kids go to bed and you can play. I want rock band and wii fit, both are basically sold out. Maybe after the holidays.

I am going to attempt to cook some holiday treats. I want to put together my bon bon I use to make. We will see if I have time.
goodnight to all and all a goodnight!!

Life with my Husband

You will find I will wright a lot about Kevin. I love the man, but he can frustrate me. I decided to start cleaning out house. I mean really cleaning. I started in my bedroom. I figure one room at time I would be good.

I had about three huge piles of papers to go through, in my room. Plus all my old clothes. All my laundry that I don't put away(frustrates the hell out of my husband) Not to get of the path, but i think it is funny what frustrates him. So he is doing laundry and complanes to me that I don't separate my underwear from my pance and I don't button them up before putting my pance in the laundry. If you ever want to ruffle my feathers complain to me about what I don't do!!! I told him I have been doing laundry and I have normally been separating it then. He wasn't happy about that, so I walked away, went back to what I was doing. He must have been a mood, because as I was getting rid of papers in the file cabinet, he pulled a rectangular box out of the garbage and said " you know this would make a nice box to put a Christmas gift in". You know that sound you here when everything comes to a complete stop that's what I heard. I looked at him with my eyebrows raised and said " excuse me?" He smiled and said sorry reliving me childhood. I gave him that squinted evil eye look and said HA HA not funny at all.

I was getting rid of very old warranties and he keep saying "we might need that. At least that's what my parents would say". I finally looked at him and said," what is your problem. You love it when I get rid of stuff".
He said, I know I don't care anymore just get rid of it. I am just messing with you".

We went on like this for a couple of hours. I walked out to the kitchen and I hear from my hubby that he is hungary. The way he has been I tell him how is it to want. Being the loving wife I make him lunch. He eats and tells me thank you for lunch. All I can think is thank God I know him. He was in a mood. I give him his space. Flirt with him.

I think what an ass until certain things come up and think I am very lucky. Tonight we checked in with two of our children who went to a Pokemon tournament today with a close friend. They wanted to spend the night, so they can go to another one on Sunday. We made the joke of its okay if it okay with the boss. ( meaning the wife of our Friend) When my husband got of the phone he told me that the boss no longer lives their,because she had an affair. I was completely shocked. Kevin said he could see that happening. He said in the last year there was something that made him think that that she was high maintenance and out friend couldn't keep up with that. Don't get me wrong he is very fun guy. Outgoing, loves to have fun, great with kids, love to get involved in what they are doing. I often got the feeling he was too much of a goof ball and she wanted someone more sophisticated.

I also think it had to do with sex. She wanted sex alot. I talked to Kevin tonight and said I did not get it. the majority of women are having affairs, because there sex life is not fulfilled. Then you have someone like me who can't keep up with my husbands sex drive and he loves me no matter what. He would like to have sex every night but he will take what he can get so if its one to three times a week, he if fine with that.

I asked him tonight if the opportunity presented it self would you say no to having sex with someone else. he said, " that he could say no when he realized he was kissing someone else". He would think what the %$@#&% am I doing and then say no. I trust that answer, because its honest.

I will be going to bed tonight and snuggling with him knowing that I love him more then anything else in this world... well except the kids, I love them just the same.

Its amazing how you can be completely frustrating with the person you love and then one Little thing happens and you realize that you would not trade your life for anything else int he world.

Enjoy your family and your life

remembering me

I have been going through my files on my labtop, cleaning my files up deleting files that I no longer need. I was going through my pictures getting rid of my junk pictures. I started to remember me when I looked at some of my favorite pictures Wow I thought I took that picture. I liked who I was when looking through a camera. I look at everything with a different angle. It made my mind work and I wasn't afraid to get in the dirt or climb a tree. I became spontanous. I would pull the car over if I saw the perfect picture setting. I always had my camera on me. Two years have past and I have slowed down with my photography. I am missing it I am craving the need to start doing it again. Its hard with a toddler in the house. I do take a lot of pictures of my kids to keep up with my passion. My favorite is macro. Its my outlet away from life, my stress reliever, my time to be me and not have a care in the world except the subject in front of me. I loved that side of me and I need to find my way back. Here is my start with these two pictures. Here is to my favorite two subjects Photography and photoshop. What is your passion? What is it that makes us the way we are or want to be? I know mine... Do you know yours?

I want to bang my head

Ever have one of those nights or days, where you wanna just bang your head on the wall. I work nights so I sleep during the day. On Thursday's... Every Thursday, my children come come early from school about 1:30. My oldest who is 13 is suppose to keep an eye on them so I can sleep at least till 3pm. My two youngest boys were making a lot of noise. I final get up form bed to see what was going on. My 13 Jr was playing the PS2 instead of watching them.

Now I normally don't let my boys play PS2 until all there homework is done, but on Thursday's I let the two younger ones play because it keeps them quite. As soon as Jr got off and the other two got on to play all was quite. I went back to bed.

Before I knew it My husband was home with the baby. I of course was still sleeping, he came in gave me a kiss and asked if I needed to sleep more. I should of said yes.

I decided leftover was for dinner. My husband decided one of those alcoholic energizer drinks was a good idea. He drank almost all of it when he read the label and it said 11% alcohol. I thought good luck with sleeping. We were chatting about work and stuff and he popped another open. Okay at this point I am thinking you idiot. Hey he has to stay home with the baby, who by the way does not sleep through the night yet. I asked him if he planned staying up all night? He replied with "very it was a bad day at work". ( sometime I will chat about that)
He thought it would be funny to get the kids all spun up. He decided to be annoying while i was on the phone with my mom. He says things like hey you talkin too? or you talkin %^&%& about me to your mom? Dakota my third child with a very loud voice I wanna talk to grandma. I looked at my loving adorable husband and told him to shut up. looked at Dakota and said no. told my mom goodbye. I wanted quite and to watch a little TV. I was also trying to help Kaleb my second oldest with his homework. well I had had enough and told them all to go to bed. I put the baby to bed and I went to get ready for work. When I came back out their was my

wonderful loving husband asleep on the couch. I thought picture opportunity. I took the first one... no movement. Took the second one the finger appeared. I thought... their is the wonderful end to my night. I was wrong. I watched my husband stagger to the bedroom. I followed and forgot how he has the sex drive of a 20yr old when he has had a couple of those type drinks. Yes I got a little something out of it. but I also wanted to bang my head. So now I sit at work thinking boy does he owe me this weekend...

Hello

So this is my first time blogging. Have no clue what I am doing. I have a my space and never use it. I am tired of it and bored with it. I keep it to stay in touch with my friends and friends from high school. It is too slow for me. Now the new thing is face book. Good lord I am too busy to keep up with all the latest trends in cyber my space-face book world. I just wanted something easy. A co-worker showed me this and I though why not. We will see how it goes...